Friday, September 25, 2009

September 25, 2009, playlist with host Alex McNeil

Abbey Road + 40: Celebrating the fortieth anniversary of the release of the Beatles' album:
01. Ike & Tina Turner - Come Together (CD, 1970)
02. Tony Bennett - Something (CD, 1969)
03. Gerard St. Paul - Bang Bang Maxwell [Maxwell's Silver Hammer] (CD, 2006)
04. George Benson - Oh Darling (LP, 1970)
05. Persuasions - Octopus's Garden (CD, 2002)
06. Assembled Multitude - I Want You (She's So Heavy) (LP, 1970)
07. [instrumental bed] Herbie Mann - Come Together (LP, 1972)
08. Nina Simone - Here Comes the Sun (CD, 1971)
09. Nylons - Because (CD, 1993)
10. Sarah Vaughan - You Never Give Me Your Money (LP, 1981)
11. Beatles - Sun King (CD, 1969)
12. Booker T. & MG's - Mean Mr. Mustard (LP, 1970)
13. Bee Gees - Polythene Pam (LP, 1978)
14. Joe Cocker - She Came in Through the Bathroom Window (CD, 1970)
15. Trash - Golden Slumbers and Carry That Weight (45, 1969)
16. George Benson - The End (LP, 1970)
17. Brian Sewell - Her Majesty (CD, 1993)
18. Israelites - Come Together (CD, 1970)
19. Kim Weston - Something (LP, 1970)
20. Jack Wild - Maxwell's Silver Hammer (LP, 1970)
21. Jimmy McGriff & Junior Parker - Oh Darling (LP, 1972)
22. George Benson - Octopus's Garden (LP, 1970)
23. Sarah Vaughan - I Want You (She's So Heavy) (LP, 1981)
24. Sharon Forrester - Here Comes the Sun (CD, 1976)
25. Stanley Jordan - Because (LP, 1986)
26. Paul Nicholas & Dianne Steinberg - You Never Give Me Your Money (LP, 1978)
27. Booker T. & MG's - Sun King (LP, 1970)
28. Frankie Howerd - Mean Mr. Mustard (LP, 1978)
29. Beatles - Polythene Pam (CD, 1968) [demo version]
30. Youngbloods - She Came in Through the Bathroom Window (LP, 1972)
31. Carmen McRae - Carry That Weight (45, 1971)
32. Beatles - The End (CD, 1969)
33. Richie Havens - Here Comes the Sun (LP, 1971)
34. Martha Reeves & Vandellas - Something (CD, 1970)
35. Beatles - Because (CD, 1969) [vocal tracks]
36. Francis Lai - Carry That Weight (CD)

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

KUSF 09.22.09 In the Soul Kitchen DJ Harry D



All Jazz Special Edition

Doug Carn-Passion Dance-Infant Eyes (Black Jazz)
Oumou Sangare-Wele Wele Wintou-Seya (Nonesuch)
Gerald Wilson-Aram-Detroit (Mack Avenue)

Phil Ranelin-A Tear In Elmina-Reminiscence (Wide Hive)
The Fania All Stars-Fania All Stars Live (Fania/Universal)
8 Bold Souls-Brown Town-Last Option (Thrill Jockey)

Joe Lovano Five-Us Five-Folk Art (Blue Note)
Nicole Mitchell’s Black Earth Strings-No Matter What-Renegades (Delmark)
Matt Wilson Quartet-Shooshabuster-Sonic Marks (Palmetto)

Jeff Parker-Like Coping-Like Coping (Delmark)
Walt Weiskopf-Blue In Two-Day In, Night Out (Criss Cross-NL)
Robert Glasper-59 South-Double Booked (Blue Note)
Cindy Blackman-Circles-A Little Somethin’, Somethin’ (32 Jazz)

Rahsaan Roland Kirk-Prelude To A Kiss-Bright Moments (Atlantic/Rhino)
Various-The Inflated Tear-Haunted Melodies (Metropolitan)
Jeff “Tain” Watts-The Devil’s Ring Tone-Watts (Dark Key)

Thelonious Monk-Unidentified Piano Solo-In Action (Riverside/Concord)
Dr. Lonnie Smith-A Matterpat-Rise Up ! (Palmetto)

1st Hour









2nd Hour







Tuesday, September 22, 2009 - Eli Polonsky

(R) - Song by request, or a request for the artist/band

01. The Blues Project - Wake Me, Shake Me
02. Moby Grape - Changes, Circles Spinning
03. Sopwith Camel - Maybe In A Dream (alternate R)
04. The Electric Flag - Another Country (alternate R)
05. Jefferson Airplane - 3/5 Of A Mile In Ten Seconds (R)
06. Dave Mason - World In Changes (R)
07. Stephen Stills - Change Partners (acoustic) (R)
08. King Crimson - I Talk To The Wind (R)
09. Spirit - Nature's Way
10. Justin Hayward - Forever Autumn (R)
11. Tom Rush - Urge For Going
12. The Kinks - Autumn Almanac
13. Vanilla Fudge - You Keep Me Hanging On (R)
14. Love - Seven & Seven Is (R)
15. Grateful Dead - Cosmic Charlie (original LP mix) (R)
16. Country Joe & The Fish - Section 43 (R)

The following set is in tribute to Mary Travers of Peter, Paul & Mary (11/9/36 - 9/16/09):
17. Peter, Paul & Mary - I Dig Rock And Roll Music
18. Peter, Paul & Mary - The Great Mandella
19. Mary Travers - I Wish I Knew How It Feels To Be Free
20. Peter, Paul & Mary - Too Much Of Nothing (R)
21. Mama Cass Elliot, Mary Travers, Joni Mitchell - I Shall Be Released (from Mama Cass TV show 1969 - watch video:)



For Geoff Muldaur at Johnny D's in Somerville Thurs. 9/24:
22. Jim Kweskin Jug Band - Chevrolet

Thanks for listening, see you next week!
Eli Polonsky

September 18, 2009, playlist with host Alex McNeil

My guest d.j. today was Mike Grover, who generously pledged for air time during our 2008 fundraiser.
Thanks, Mike!
01. Captain Beefheart - Kandy Korn (LP, 1971)
02. Mothers of Invention - Holiday in Berlin, Full Blown (CD, 1971)
03. Frank Zappa - Cheepnis/Orange County Lumbertruck (CD, 1974)
04. Jimi Hendrix/Band of Gypsies - Stone Free (CD, 1970)
05. Edgar Winter's White Trash - Rock and Roll Hoochie Coo (LP, 1972)
06. Edgar Winter's White Trash - Red Light Mama Red Hot (LP, 1971)
07. Mike Bloomfield - Born in Chicago (CD)
08. Allman Brothers - Stormy Monday (CD)
09. Grateful Dead - Big River (CD, 1972)
10. Grateful Dead - Beat It on Down the Line (CD, 1971)
11. Delaney & Bonnie and Friends - Living on the Open Road (LP, 1970)
12. Delaney & Bonnie - Only You Know and I Know (LP, 1971)
13. Wilson Pickett - Hey Jude (LP, 1969)
14. Derek & Dominos - Why Does Love Got to Be So Sad (CD, 1972)
15. Joe Cocker - With a Little Help from My Friends (CD, 1969)
16. Mothers of Invention - America Drinks and Goes Home (CD, 1967)

Monday, September 21, 2009

Mahendra Singh Dhoni

Mahendra Singh Dhoni

Personal information
Full name
Mahendra Singh Dhoni
Born
7 July 1981 (1981-07-07) (age 28)Ranchi, Jharkhand (formerly a part of Bihar), India
Nickname
Mahi
Batting style
Right-hand batsman
Bowling style
Right-hand medium
Role
Wicket-keeper, Captain
International information
National side
India
Test debut (cap 251)
2 December 2005 v Sri Lanka
Last Test
3 April 2009 v New Zealand
ODI debut (cap 157)
23 December 2004 v Bangladesh
Last ODI
14 September 2009 v Sri Lanka
ODI shirt no.
7
Domestic team information
Years
Team
1999/00 - 2004/05
Bihar
2004/05-
Jharkhand
2008-
Chennai Super Kings
Career statistics
Competition
Test
ODI
FC
List A
Matches
37
142
77
195
Runs scored
1,962
4,666
4,130
6,574
Batting average
37.73
50.17
36.22
49.42
100s/50s
1/16
4/32
4/30
10/43
Top score
148
183*
148
183*
Balls bowled
12

42

Wickets
0

0

Bowling average




5 wickets in innings
0

0

10 wickets in match
0

0

Best bowling
0/1

0/1

Catches/stumpings
92/18
140/46
198/36
206/61

Sachin Tendulkar



Sachin Ramesh Tendulkar
Born
24 April 1973 (1973-04-24) (age 36)Mumbai, India
Nickname
Little Master, Tendlya,[1] Master Blaster,[2] The Master,[3][4] The Little Champion[5]
Height
5 ft 5 in (1.65 m)
Batting style
Right-handed
Bowling style
Right-arm leg break/off break/medium
Role
Batsman
International information
National side
India
Test debut (cap 187)
15 November 1989 v Pakistan
Last Test
3 April 2009 v New Zealand
ODI debut (cap 74)
18 December 1989 v Pakistan
Last ODI
14 September 2009 v Sri Lanka
ODI shirt no.
10
Domestic team information
Years
Team
1988–present
Mumbai
2008-present
Mumbai Indians (Indian Premier League)
1992
Yorkshire
Career statistics
Competition
Test
ODI
FC
LA
Matches
159
428
261
515
Runs scored
12,773
16,895
21,662
20,447
Batting average
54.58
44.57
58.70
45.43
100s/50s
42/53
44/91
69/99
55/109
Top score
248*
186*
248*
186*
Balls bowled
3,934
8,015
7,299
10,191
Wickets
44
154
69
201
Bowling average
51.63
44.19
60.34
41.96
5 wickets in innings
0
2
0
2
10 wickets in match
0
n/a
0
n/a
Best bowling
3/10
5/32
3/10
5/32
Catches/stumpings
102/–
129/–
170/–
164/–

All Nine Devi Detail's

Durga Shailputri (Daughter of Mountain) She is a daughter of Himalaya and first among nine Durgas. In previous birth she was the daughter of Daksha. Her name was Sati – Bhavani. i.e. the wife of Lord Shiva. Once Daksha had organized a big Yagna and did not invite Shiva. But Sati being obstinate, reached there. Thereupon Daksha insulted Shiva. Sati could not tolerate the insult of husband and burnt herself in the fire of Yagna. In other birth she became the daughter of Himalaya in the name of Parvati – Hemvati and got married with Shiva. As per Upnishad she had torn and the egotism of Indra, etc. Devtas. Being ashamed they bowed and prayed that, “In fact, thou are Shakti, we all – Brahma, Vishnu and Shiv are capable by getting Shakti from you.”
BrahmachariniThe second Durga Shakti is Brahamcharini. Brahma that is who observes penance(tapa) and good conduct. Here “Brahma” means “Tapa”. The idol of this Goddess is very gorgeous. There is rosary in her right hand and Kamandal in left hand. She is full with merriment. One story is famous about her. In previous birth she was Parvati Hemavati the daughter of Himvan. Once when she was busy in games with her friends. Naradaji came to her and predicted seeing her Palm-lines that, “You will get married with a naked-terrible ‘Bhole baba’ who was with you in the form of Sati, the daughter of Daksh in previous birth. But now you have to perform penance for him.” There upon Parvati told her mother Menaka that she would marry none except Shambhu, otherwise she would remain unmarried. Saying this she went to observe penance. That is why her name is famous as tapacharini – Brahmacharini. From that time her name Uma became familiar.
Chandraghanta The name of third Shakti is Chandraghanta. There is a half-circular moon in her forehead. She is charmful and bright. She is Golden color. She has three eyes and ten hands holding with ten types of swords – etc. weapons and arrows etc. She is seated on Lion and ready for going in war to fight. She is unprecedented image of bravery. The frightful sound of her bell terrifies all the villains, demons and danavas.
KushmandaName of fourth Durga is Kushmanda. The Shakti creates egg, ie. Universe by mere laughing .She resides in solar systems. She shines brightly in all the ten directions like Sun. She has eight hands. Seven types of weapons are shining in her seven hands. Rosary is in her right hand. She seems brilliant riding on Lion. She likes the offerings of “Kumhde.” Therefore her name “Kushmanda” has become famous.
Skanda MataFifth name of Durga is “Skanda Mata”. The daughter of Himalaya, after observing penance got married with Shiva. She had a son named “Skanda.” Skanda is a leader of the army of Gods. Skanda Mata is a deity of fire. Skanda is seated in her lap. She has three eyes and four hands. She is white and seated on a lotus.
KatyayaniSixth Durga is Katyayani. The son of “Kat” as “Katya”. Rishi Katyayan born in this “Katya” lineage. Katyayan had observed penance with a desire to get paramba as his daughter. As a result she took birth as a daughter of Katyayan. Therefore her name is “Katyayani” . She has three eyes and eight hands. These are eight types of weapons missiles in her seven hands. Her vehicle is Lion.
Kalratri Seventh Durga is Kalratri. She is black like night. Durga hairs are unlocked. She has put on necklaces shining like lightening. She has three eyes which are round like universe. Her eyes are bright. Thousands of flames of fire come out while respiring from nose. She rides on Shava (dead body). There is sharp sword in her right hand. Her lower hand is in blessing mood. The burning torch (mashal) is in her left hand and her lower left hand is in fearless style, by which she makes her devotees fearless. Being auspicious she is called “Shubhamkari.”
Maha Gauri The Eighth Durga is “Maha Gauri.” She is as white as a conch, moon and Jasmine. She is of eight years old. Her clothes and ornaments are white and clean. She has three eyes. She rides on bull She has four hands. The above left hand is in “Fearless – Mudra” and lower left hand holds “Trishul.” The above right hand has tambourine and lower right hand is in blessing style. She is calm and peaceful and exists in peaceful style. It is said that when the body of Gauri became dirty due to dust and earth while observing penance, Shiva makes it clean with the waters of Gangas. Then her body became bright like lightening. There fore, she is known as “Maha Gauri” .
Siddhidatri Ninth Durga us Siddhidatri. There are eight Siddhis , they are- Anima, Mahima, Garima, Laghima, Prapti, Prakamya, Iishitva & Vashitva. Maha Shakti gives all these Siddhies. It is said in “Devipuran” that the Supreme God Shiv got all these Siddhies by worshipping Maha Shakti. With her gratitude the half body of Shiv has became of Goddess and there fore his name “Ardhanarishvar” has became famous. The Goddess drives on Lion. She has four hands and looks pleased. This form of Durga is worshiped by all Gods, Rishis-Munis, Siddhas, Yogis, Sadhakas and devotees for attaining the best religious asset.

Maa Veshno Devi Katha

Maa Veshno Devi Katha
At about 2 kms from Katra is situated an old village, Hansal, also called (Hansalli). Around 700 years ago, there lived a very poor priest named Pandit Shirdhar, who was very heartily devoted to Meri Maiya Vaishnodevi. He used to sing his daily prayers and performed Meri Maiya Puja daily. He also used to worship little girls (called Kanya Pujan) regularly. And as faith was, he was childless and had no children of his own.
His daily Puja and Prayers for Meri Maiya Vaishnodevi went on for many years. At last seeing his firm-faith and the true devotion, Meri Maiya one day came to Panditji, in the form of a little innocent girl.
Pandit Shridhar had been busy in his daily preparation of Kanya Pujan, where, some little girls were present before him. Meri Maiya Vaishnodevi manifested herself in those little-girls. As per the Hindu tradition, while Pt. Shirdhar had been washing the feet of these little girls, his sight fell on Meri Maiya manifested Herself in the form of a little girl. Panditji was astonished to see HER celestial beauty in vermilion garbs; SHE wore on HER divine body. He had never seen the little girl before, and SHE did not even seem to belong to his village. Anyway, he worshipped as usual. When the Puja was over, all the girls returned to their homes after getting their offerings from Panditji, except Meri Maiya who remained seated.
Panditji was very much confused and was about to enquire and ask Meri Maiya, that Meri Maiya Herself spoke to him and said " I have an important task for you." Panditji was spell bound and was astonished more and more to listen to such a conversation from that little-girl. Meri Maiya asked Panditji to invite people from neighboring villages for a collective lunch - called Bhandhara. Panditji was very much confused and before he could say anything or ask Meri Maiya about HER, Meri Maiya disappeared. [Read More: Bhumika Temple - About 2 kilometers from Katra on Panthal Road, is situated Bhumika Temple. This is the place, where Pt. Shirdhar had the sight of Meri Maiya Vaishnodevi - The Divine Girl. At this very place Pt. Shridhar arranged the Bhandhara.]
Pt. Shirdhar went on thinking hard - who this little girl was?, but was unable to find an answer to it… SHE might be an "Eternal-Girl", or may be Meri Maiya Vaishnodevi Herself and the more he thought the more he got confused, and worried for the "Bhandhara", as it was not possible for him to keep such a huge Bhandhara. He could not think of anything, and in the end, he decided to obey the Divine Girl and went to tell and invite the people in the neighboring villages.
He went on to invite people from one village to another. On his way, he came across a group of saints. He very humbly bowed before them, and with his folded hands, extended an invitation to them also to attend Bhandhara, the next day. Gorakhnath - the leader of the group of saints - told him that he was mistaking in inviting them at home, as even Lord Indra had not been able to satisfy them. Pt. Shridhar got afraid and related them the event and told them of the Divine-Girl. Gorakhnath in his anxiety accepted Panditji's invitation. He also wanted to see, such a girl, who could prepare food for so many peoples and was very curious to find Who this Girl was?
Panditji was fully exhausted when he returned home, and so he went fast asleep immediately on returning home. The next morning, once again, he started worrying about the arrangements for Bhandhara. He just sat in his home, thinking, when people began to gather outside his small hut. Gorakhnath and Bhairavnath, a disciple of Gorakhnath, also arrived along with their disciples.
Panditji was not able to understand what was going on, and to his surprise, all of a sudden Meri Maiya Vaishnodevi - The Divine Girl, entered into the little hut. No one could know - which way SHE had come! How and when did SHE arrive? Meri Maiya told Panditji, "Don't worry, and get up! Everything will be arranged very soon. Tell your guests to come in and sit in the hut." Pt. Shirdhar, immediately got up, and came out to the eagerly awaiting crowd. He invited them to come inside the hut and have food. Gorakhanth then asked - How can we sit in your hut? It does not have a sufficient space for all of us. Panditji folded his hands and said. No problem - please come in .....
All people who were invited began to enter one by one in the hut. All of them were astonished to see, that all of them had entered and sat inside the hut and still a small space was left in the corner of the same hut, which was very small !!
Meri Maiya began to serve food from a small vessel in HER little hands. The foods of their respective choice and likings! Everyone was surprised and Meri Maiya bhakt Pt. Shirdhar was overwhelmed with joy.
Gorakhnath and his senior disciple Bhairavnath were very much amazed and began to consult between themselves - and said SHE seems to be an Eternal Power. Who SHE was? and when Meri Maiya reached Bhairavnath to serve him the foods, he asked, "Shall I get the food of my choice?"
"What do you want?" Meri Maiya asked him politely.
Bhairavnath asked for meat and wine. Meri Maiya very gently told him that he was sitting in the hut of a pious Vaishnav Brahmin, and that only vegetarian food will be served.
Bhairavnath turned a deaf ears to the words, as he wanted to cross-examine the Girl. Nevertheless, Meri Maiya knew his evil desires and as soon as, Bhairavnath could rose up with some seditious thinking and tried to catch hold of Meri Maiya hand, Meri Maiya disappeared.
Bhairavnath was an expert at the science of meditation and was a tantrik. He closed his eyes for a moment and saw with the help of his yogic-powers (tantrik powers) that Meri Maiya had proceeded towards the Trikuta Hills, in a subtle form of "Air". Bhairavnath started chasing Meri Maiya. [Read More : Darshni Darwaza - Meri Maiya Vaishnodevi proceeded through this way, after disappearing from the Bhandhara. One can get a clear view of the hills, from this place. Hence it is called Darshni Darwaza, i.e., a gate to the hill-site one and a half kilometer from Katra.]
During this chase, Meri Maiya felt thirsty, and SHE perched an arrow with HER bow on the land and a stream of water flew out. This place is called Ban Ganga. [Read More : Ban Ganga - Starting form Katra and passing through Darshni Darwaza, Ban Ganga is a streamlet gushing out from the hills over a bridge. The stream is regarded very sacred and many bhakts take a purificatory bath in it before proceeding further. A beautiful idol of the goddess is place in the corridors of Ban Ganga temple.]
Meri Maiya stopped for some time and looked behind at Bhairavnath who was chasing her. [Read More : Charan Paduka - The place where Meri Maiya rested have marks of the impressions of HER feet and were printed on a stone as SHE stopped here. The foot prints are still visible on the stone, preserved here in the temple. Hence, the place is called "Charan Paduka" i.e., the holy foot prints.]
At a considerable distance from Charan paduka, Meri Maiya reached a small charming plateau, called Ardhkwari, where a mendicant was practicing his meditations opposite a small tunnel. SHE gave HER divine sight to the mendicant and told him not to tell any thing about HER visit to any one. Thereafter, Meri Maiya went into the tunnel and took rest for full long nine months, as if the child in the womb of a mother. Meri Maiya spent the nine months in complete devotion. Hence, the tunnel was called "Garabh Joon".
Searching for Meri Maiya, Bhairavnath reached here. He asked the mendicant " Have you seen a girl on this plateau?" The old mendicant replied, " SHE is the supreme power in the whole world, whom you think to be an ordinary girl and that she is Adikumari", i.e. A virgin since the very beginning of this earth. He told Bhairavnath either to run away or to beg pardon from HER. The moment universe came into existence since then SHE has maintained virginity better you go back. Bhairavnath again put a deaf ear to the advice and entered into the tunnel. Meri Maiya Vaishnodevi was aware of it. Meri Maiya with HER divine powers made another opening of the cave by strucking a path at the end of the tunnel with the help of HER trident and moved ahead towards the Holy cave at Darbar (Bhavan). [Read More : Garabh Joon - The tunnel is about 15 feet long that starts horizontally and ends vertically. This place is about 5 kms from Charan Paduka.]
On reaching at the Holy cave at Darbar Meri Maiya with all HER powers looked as Meri Maiya MAHA KALI and in the end Meri Maiya with HER Trishul cut the head of Bhairavnath and threw it with such a force that it went at a distant Mountain. The place at which the head fell is now Bhairav temple. According to the katha the big rock at the entrance of the Holy cave is the remaining body of Bhairavnath.
Bhairavnath then started pleading Meri Maiya, and begged to Meri Maiya to forgive him, for his sins.
Merciful Meri Maiya Vaishnodevi forgave Bhairavnath for all his sins and blessed him and granted him a wish that whenever HER bhakts will come to Bhavan for HER Darshan their yatra will not be completed unless on going back after HER Darshan the bhakts pay homage at Bhairavnath temple.
On the other side, Pt. Shirdhar was very much disappointed with the sudden disappearance of Meri Maiya. He was very much worried about Meri Maiya, and went on for fasting for many days, even leaving food and water.
Kind hearted Meri Maiya Vaishnodevi, again appeared before him, in his dream one night. In his dream, Meri Maiya showed him HER shrine - the Holy cave and asked him to follow HER through the route. Panditji followed Meri Maiya and reached Meri Maiya Pavitra Gufa. Pt. Shirdhar was very happy when he woke up in the morning. All his distortion was removed.
From that very day, Panditji began to search for the Holy cave of Meri Maiya, which he had seen in his dream. He was very much disturbed and wanted to find Meri Maiya Holy cave as soon as possible. He started recounting and following the route as Meri Maiya has directed him, and once while climbing up the hills, Panditji was able discover the Holy cave, the same which he saw in his dream.
Panditji entered inside the Holy Cave .…. And to his astonishment, he got the Holy sight of the abode of Meri Maiya Vaishnodevi to the success of his life. He saw, Meri Maiya Vaishnodevi, represented by three goddesses, viz. Meri Maiya Maha Laxmi (the goddess of beauty and wealth), Meri Maiya Mahakali (the vanquisher of evil (right)), Meri Maiya Maha Saraswati (the muse of art and learning (left)). Pandit Shirdhar read hymns and verses in praise of Meri Maiya Vaishnodevi, with his hands folded before HER, and offered "Aarti", and bowed and prayed by all means. Meri Maiya Vaishnodevi was very much pleased with him. SHE granted him a boon of four sons, and said that his descendants will continue to worship HER. Since that day, the descendants of Pt. Shirdhar have been worshipping Meri Maiya Vaishnodevi, inside the Holy cave (Pavitra Gufa).
Thereafter, Pt. Shirdhar made known to this world of the Holy Cave and existence of Meri Maiya Vaishnodevi in the Pavitra Gufa. This is how, we all came to know of our beloved Meri Maiya Vaishnodevi ..... and had been blessed by HER all through these years .....


Jai Mata Di...
Durga mata
Durga-: In Hinduism, the Goddess Durga (दुर्गा, "the inaccessible"[1] or "the invincible"[2]) or Maa Durga (Mother Durga) "one who can redeem in situations of utmost distress".[citation needed] Durga is a form of Devi, the supremely radiant goddess, depicted as having ten arms, riding a lion or a tiger, carrying weapons (including a lotus flower), maintaining a meditative smile, and practicing mudras, or symbolic hand gestures.
An embodiment of creative feminine force (Shakti), Durga exists in a state of svātantrya (dependence on the universe and nothing/nobody else, i.e., self-sufficiency) and fierce compassion. Durga is considered by Hindus to be an aspect of Kali, and the mother of Ganesha, and Kartikeya.[3] She is thus considered the fiercer, demon-fighting form of Lord Shiva's wife, Goddess Parvati. Durga manifests fearlessness and patience, and never loses her sense of humor, even during spiritual battles of epic proportion.In Hinduism, the Goddess Durga (दुर्गा, "the inaccessible"[1] or "the invincible"[2]) or Maa Durga (Mother Durga) "one who can redeem in situations of utmost distress".[citation needed] Durga is a form of Devi, the supremely radiant goddess, depicted as having ten arms, riding a lion or a tiger, carrying weapons (including a lotus flower), maintaining a meditative smile, and practicing mudras, or symbolic hand gestures.
An embodiment of creative feminine force (Shakti), Durga exists in a state of svātantrya (dependence on the universe and nothing/nobody else, i.e., self-sufficiency) and fierce compassion. Durga is considered by Hindus to be an aspect of Kali, and the mother of Ganesha, and Kartikeya.[3] She is thus considered the fiercer, demon-fighting form of Lord Shiva's wife, Goddess Parvati. Durga manifests fearlessness and patience, and never loses her sense of humor, even during spiritual battles of epic proportion.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Sarvepalli Radhakrishnan

Sarvepalli Radhakrishnan
Born: September 5, 1888
Died: April 17, 1975
Achievements: First Vice President and second President of India. Placed Indian philosophy on world map.

Sarvepalli Radhakrishnan was first Vice President of India and second President of India. He was also a philosopher and introduced the thinking of western idealist philosophers into Indian thought. He was a famous teacher and his birthday is celebrated as Teacher's Day in India.

Sarvepalli Radhakrishnan was born on September 5, 1888 at Tirutani, Madras in a poor Brahmin family. As his father was poor Radhakrishnan supported most of his education through scholarships. Dr. Sarvepalli Radhakrishnan had his early education at Gowdie School, Tiruvallur and then went to the Lutheran Mission School in Tirupati for his high school. He joined the Voorhee's College in Vellore and later switched to the Madras Christian College. He chose Philosophy as his major subject and did his B.A. and M.A. in it.

After completing his M.A., Sarvepalli Radhakrishnan, accepted an Assistant Lectureship at the Madras Presidency College in 1909. In college, he mastered the classics of Hindu philosophy, namely the Upanishads, Bhagvad Gita, Brahmasutra, and commentaries of Sankara, Ramunuja and Madhava. He also acquainted himself with Buddhist and Jain philosophy and philosophies of Western thinkers such as Plato, Plotinus, Kant, Bradley, and Bergson.

In 1918, Sarvepalli Radhakrishnan was selected as Professor of Philosophy by the University of Mysore. In 1921, Radhakrishnan was nominated as Professor of Philosophy at the Calcutta University, 1921. In 1923, Dr. Radhakrishnan's book "Indian Philosophy" was published. The book was hailed as a "philosophical classic and a literary masterpiece."

Sarvepalli Radhakrishnan was called to Oxford University, to deliver lectures on Hindu philosophy. He used his lectures as a platform to further India's cause for freedom. He also argued that Western philosophers, despite all claims to objectivity, were biased by theological influences from their wider culture. He showed that Indian philosophy, once translated into standard academic jargon, is worthy of being called philosophy by Western standards. He thus placed Indian Philosophy on world map.

In 1931, Dr. Sarvepalli Radhakrishnan was elected Vice Chancellor of the Andhra University. In 1939, Radhakrishnan became the Vice Chancellor of the Benaras Hindu University. In 1946, he was appointed as Ambassador to UNESCO. After Independence Dr. Radhakrishnan was requested to Chair the University Education Commission in 1948. The Radhakrishnan Committee's suggestions helped mould the education system for India's needs.

In 1949, Dr. Sarvepalli Radhakrishnan was appointed ambassador to the Soviet Union. He helped laid the foundation for a strong relationship with Soviet Union. Radhakrishnan was elected first Vice-President of India in 1952. He was honored with the Bharat Ratna in 1954. After serving two terms as Vice-President, Sarvepalli Radhakrishnan was elected President of India in 1962. During his tenure as President India fought wars with China and Pakistan. As President he helped see India through those trying years safely. He retired as President in 1967 and settled in Madras.

Dr. Sarvepalli Radhakrishnan died on April 17, 1975.

Sardar Patel

Sardar Patel
Born: October 31, 1875
Died: December 15, 1950
Achievements: Successfully led Kheda Satyagraha and Bardoli revolt against British government; elected Ahmedabad's municipal president in 1922, 1924 and 1927; elected Congress President in 1931; was independent India's first Deputy Prime Minister and Home Minister; played a key role in political integration of India; conferred Bharat Ratna in 1991.

Sardar Patel was popularly known as Iron Man of India. His full name was Vallabhbhai Patel. He played a leading role in the Indian freedom struggle and became the first Deputy Prime Minister and Home Minister of India. He is credited with achieving political integration of India.

Vallabhbhai Patel was born on October 31, 1875 in Nadiad, a small village in Gujarat. His father Jhaverbhai was a farmer and mother Laad Bai was a simple lady. Sardar Vallabhai's early education took place in Karamsad. Then he joined a school in Petlad. After two years he joined a high school in a town called Nadiad. He passed his high school examination in 1896. Sardar Vallabhbhai Patel was a brilliant student throughout his schooling.

Vallabhbhai wanted to become a barrister. To realize this ambition he had to go to England. But he did not have the financial means to even join a college India. In those days a candidate could study in private and sit for an examination in Law. Sardar Vallabh Bhai Patel borrowed books from a lawyer of his acquaintance and studied at home. Occasionally he attended courts of law and listened attentively to the arguments of lawyer. Vallabhbhai passed the Law examination with flying colours.

Sardar Vallabhbhai Patel started his Law practice in Godhra. Soon his practice flourished. He got married to Jhaberaba. In 1904, he got a baby daughter Maniben, and in 1905 his son Dahyabhai was born. Vallabhbhai sent his elder brother Vitthalbhai, who himself was a lawyer, to England for higher studies in Law. Patel was only thirty-three years old when his wife died. He did not wish to marry again. After his brother's return, Vallabhbhai went to England. He studied with single-minded devotion and stood first in the Barrister-at-Law Examination.

Sardar Patel returned to India in 1913 and started his practice in Ahmedabad. Soon he became popular. At the urging of his friends, Patel contested and won elections to become the sanitation commissioner of Ahmedabad in 1917. Sardar Patel was deeply impressed by Gandhiji's success in Champaran Satyagraha. In 1918, there was a drought in the Kheda division of Gujarat. Peasants asked for relief from the high rate of taxes but the British government refused. Gandhiji took up peasants cause but could not devote his full time in Kheda. He was looking for someone who could lead the struggle in his absence. At this point Sardar Patel volunteered to come forward and lead the struggle. He gave up his lucrative legal practice and entered public life.

Vallabhbhai successfully led peasants revolt in Kheda and the revolt ended in 1919 when the British government agreed to suspend collection of revenue and roll back the rates. Kheda Satyagraha turned Vallabhbhai Patel into a national hero. Vallabhbhai supported Gandhi's Non-Cooperation Movement, and as president of the Gujarat Congress, helped in organizing bonfires of British goods in Ahmedabad. He gave up his English clothes and started wearing Khadi. Sardar Vallabh Bhai Patel was elected Ahmedabad's municipal president in 1922, 1924 and 1927. During his terms, Ahmedabad was extended a major supply of electricity and underwent major education reforms. Drainage and sanitation systems were extended over all the city.

In 1928, Bardoli Taluka in Gujarat suffered from floods and famine. In this hour of distress the British government raised the revenue taxes by thirty percent. Sardar Patel took up cudgels on behalf of the farmers and appealed to the Governor to reduce the taxes. The Governor refused and the government even announced the date of the collection of the taxes. Sardar Patel organized the farmers and told them not to pay even a single pie of tax. The government tried to repress the revolt but ultimately bowed before Vallabhbhai Patel. It was during the struggle and after the victory in Bardoli that caused intense excitement across India, that Patel was increasingly addressed by his colleagues and followers as Sardar.

Disobedience Movement in 1930. After the signing of Gandhi-Irwin pact in 1931, Sardar Patel was released and he was elected Congress president for its 1931 session in Karachi. Upon the failure of the Round Table Conference in London, Gandhiji and Sardar Patel were arrested in January 1932 and imprisoned in the Yeravada Central Jail. During this term of imprisonment, Sardar Patel and Mahatma Gandhi grew close to one another, and the two developed a close bond of affection, trust, and frankness without reserve. Sardar Patel was finally released in July 1934.

In August 1942, the Congress launched the Quit India Movement. The government jailed all the important leaders of the Congress, including Vallabhai Patel. All the leaders were released after three years. After achieving independence on 15th of August 1947, Pandit Jawaharlal Nehru became the first Prime Minister of independent India and Sardar Patel became the Deputy Prime Minister. He was in charge of Home Affairs, Information and Broadcasting and the Ministry of States.

There were 565 princely states in India at that time. Some of the Maharajas and Nawabs who ruled over these were sensible and patriotic. But most of them were drunk with wealth and power. They were dreaming of becoming independent rulers once the British quit India. They argued that the government of free India should treat them as equals. Some of them went to the extent of planning to send their representatives to the United Nations Organization. Patel invoked the patriotism of India's monarchs, asking them to join in the freedom of their nation and act as responsible rulers who cared about the future of their people. He persuaded the princes of 565 states of the impossibility of independence from the Indian republic, especially in the presence of growing opposition from their subjects. With great wisdom and political foresight, he consolidated the small kingdoms. The public was with him. He tackled the Nizam of Hyderabad and the Nawab of Junagarh who initially did not want to join India. Sardar Patel's untiring efforts towards the unity of the country brought success. He united a scattered nation without much bloodshed. Due to the achievement of this massive task, Sardar Patel got the title of 'Iron Man'. Sardar Patel died of cardiac arrest on December 15, 1950. For his services to the nation Sardar Patel was conferred with Bharat Ratna in 1991.

Bal Gangadhar Tilak


Bal Gangadhar Tilak
Born: July 23, 1856
Died: August 1, 1920
Achievements: Considered as Father of Indian National Movement; Founded “Deccan Education Society” to impart quality education to India's youth; was a member of the Municipal Council of Pune, Bombay Legislature, and an elected 'Fellow' of the Bombay University; formed Home Rule League in 1916 to attain the goal of Swaraj.

Bal Gangadhar Tilak is considered as Father of Indian National Movement. Bal Gangadhar Tilak was a multifaceted personality. He was a social reformer, freedom fighter, national leader, and a scholar of Indian history, sanskrit, hinduism, mathematics and astronomy. Bal Gangadhar Tilak was popularly called as Lokmanya (Beloved of the people). During freedom struggle, his slogan “Swaraj is my birthright and I shall have it” inspired millions of Indians.

Bal Gangadhar Tilak was born on July 23, 1856 in Ratnagiri, Maharashtra. He was a Chitpavan Brahmin by caste. His father Gangadhar Ramachandra Tilak was a Sanskrit scholar and a famous teacher. Tilak was a brilliant student and he was very good in mathematics. Since childhood Tilak had an intolerant attitude towards injustice and he was truthful and straightforward in nature. He was among India's first generation of youth to receive a modern, college education.

When Tilak was ten his father was transferred to Pune from Ratnagiri. This brought sea change in Tilak’s life. He joined the Anglo-Vernacular School in Pune and got education from some of the well known teachers. Soon after coming to Pune Tilak lost his mother and by the time he was sixteen he lost his father too. While Tilak was studying in Matriculation he was married to a 10-year-old girl called Satyabhama. After passing the Matriculation Examination Tilak joined the Deccan College. In 1877, Bal Gangadhar Tilak got his B.A. degree with a first class in mathematics. He continued his studies and got the LL.B. degree too.

After graduation, Tilak began teaching mathematics in a private school in Pune and later became a journalist. He became a strong critic of the Western education system, feeling it demeaning to Indian students and disrespectful to India's heritage. He came to the conclusion that good citizens can be moulded only through good education. He believed that every Indian had to be taught about Indian culture and national ideals. Along with his classmate Agarkar and great social reformer Vishnushastry Chiplunkar, Bal Gangadhar Tilak founded “Deccan Education Society” to impart quality education to India's youth.

The very next year after the Deccan Education Society was founded, Tilak started two weeklies, 'Kesari' and 'Mahratta'. 'Kesari' was Marathi weekly while 'Mahratta' was English weekly. Soon both the newspapers became very popular. In his newspapers, Tilak highlighted the plight of Indians. He gave a vivid picture of the people's sufferings and of actual happenings. Tilak called upon every Indian to fight for his right. Bal Gangadhar Tilak used fiery language to arouse the sleeping Indians.

Bal Gangadhar Tilak joined the Indian National Congress in 1890. He was a member of the Municipal Council of Pune, Bombay Legislature, and an elected 'Fellow' of the Bombay University. Tilak was a great social reformer. He issued a call for the banning of child marriage and welcomed widow remarriage. Through the celebrations of Ganapati Festival and the birthday of the Shivaji he organized people.

In 1897, Bal Gangadhar Tilak was charged with writing articles instigating people to rise against the government and to break the laws and disturb the peace. He was sentenced to rigorous imprisonment for one and a half year. Tilak was released in 1898. After his release, Tilak launched Swadeshi Movement. Through newspapers and lectures, Tilak spread the message to each and every village in Maharashtra. A big 'Swadeshi Market' was opened in front of Tilak's house. Meanwhile, Congress was split into two camps-Moderates and Extremists. Extremists led by Bal Gangadhar Tilak opposed the moderate faction led by Gopal Krishna. Extremists were in the favour of self rule while the moderates thought that time is not yet ripe for such an eventuality. This rift finally led to a split in the Congress.

Tilak was arrested on the charges of sedition in 1906. After the trial, Tilak was sentenced to six years of imprisonment in Mandalay (Burma). Tilak spent his time in prison by reading and writing. He wrote the book 'Gita-Rahasya' while he was in prison. Tilak was released on June 8, 1914. After his release, Bal Gangadhar Tilak tried to bring the two factions of Congress together. But his efforts did not bear much fruit. In 1916, Tilak decided to build a separate organization called the 'Home Rule League'. Its goal was swaraj. Tilak went from village to village, and explained the aim of his league to the farmers and won their hearts. He traveled constantly in order to organize the people. While fighting for people’s cause Bal Gangadhar Tilak died on August 1, 1920.

Subhas Chandra Bose


Subhas Chandra Bose
Born: January 23, 1897
Died: August 18, 1945
Achievements: Passed Indian Civil Services Exam; elected Congress President in 1938 and 1939; formed a new party All India Forward block; organized Azad Hind Fauj to overthrow British Empire from India.

Subhas Chandra Bose, affectionately called as Netaji, was one of the most prominent leaders of Indian freedom struggle. Though Mahatma Gandhi and Jawaharlal Nehru have garnered much of the credit for successful culmination of Indian freedom struggle, the contribution of Subash Chandra Bose is no less. He has been denied his rightful place in the annals of Indian history. He founded Indian National Army (Azad Hind Fauj) to overthrow British Empire from India and came to acquire legendary status among Indian masses.

Subhas Chandra Bose was born on January 23, 1897 in Cuttack, Orissa. His father Janaki Nath Bose was a famous lawyer and his mother Prabhavati Devi was a pious and religious lady. Subhas Chandra Bose was the ninth child among fourteen siblings. Subhas Chandra Bose was a brilliant student right from the childhood. He topped the matriculation examination of Calcutta province and graduated with a First Class in Philosophy from the Scottish Churches College in Calcutta. He was strongly influenced by Swami Vivekananda's teachings and was known for his patriotic zeal as a student. To fulfill his parents wishes he went to England in 1919 to compete for Indian Civil Services. In England he appeared for the Indian Civil Service competitive examination in 1920, and came out fourth in order of merit. However, Subhas Chandra Bose was deeply disturbed by the Jallianwalla Bagh massacre, and left his Civil Services apprenticeship midway to return to India in 1921

After returning to India Netaji Subhash Chandra Bose came under the influence of Mahatma Gandhi and joined the Indian National Congress. On Gandhiji's instructions, he started working under Deshbandhu Chittaranjan Das, whom he later acknowledged his political guru. Soon he showed his leadership mettle and gained his way up in the Congress' hierarchy. In 1928 the Motilal Nehru Committee appointed by the Congress declared in favour of Domination Status, but Subhas Chandra Bose along with Jawaharlal Nehru opposed it, and both asserted that they would be satisfied with nothing short of complete independence for India. Subhas also announced the formation of the Independence League. Subhas Chandra Bose was jailed during Civil Disobedience movement in 1930. He was released in 1931 after Gandhi-Irwin pact was signed. He protested against the Gandhi-Irwin pact and opposed the suspension of Civil Disobedience movement specially when Bhagat Singh and his associates were hanged.

Subash Chandra Bose was soon arrested again under the infamous Bengal Regulation. After an year he was released on medical grounds and was banished from India to Europe. He took steps to establish centres in different European capitals with a view to promoting politico-cultural contacts between India and Europe. Defying the ban on his entry to India, Subash Chandra Bose returned to India and was again arrested and jailed for a year. After the General Elections of 1937, Congress came to power in seven states and Subash Chandra Bose was released. Shortly afterwards he was elected President of the Haripura Congress Session in 1938. During his term as Congress President, he talked of planning in concrete terms, and set up a National planning Committee in October that year. At the end of his first term, the presidential election to the Tripuri Congress session took place early 1939. Subhas Chandra Bose was re-elected, defeating Dr. Pattabhi Sitaramayya who had been backed by Mahatma Gandhi and the Congress Working Committee. Clouds of World War II were on the horizon and he brought a resolution to give the British six months to hand India over to the Indians, failing which there would be a revolt. There was much opposition to his rigid stand, and he resigned from the post of president and formed a progressive group known as the Forward Block.

Subhas Chandra Bose now started a mass movement against utilizing Indian resources and men for the great war. There was a tremendous response to his call and he was put under house arrest in Calcutta. In January 1941, Subhas Chandra Bose disappeared from his home in Calcutta and reached Germany via Afghanistan. Working on the maxim that "an enemy's enemy is a friend", he sought cooperation of Germany and Japan against British Empire. In January 1942, he began his regular broadcasts from Radio Berlin, which aroused tremendous enthusiasm in India. In July 1943, he arrived in Singapore from Germany. In Singapore he took over the reins of the Indian Independence Movement in East Asia from Rash Behari Bose and organised the Azad Hind Fauj (Indian National Army) comprising mainly of Indian prisoners of war. He was hailed as Netaji by the Army as well as by the Indian civilian population in East Asia. Azad Hind Fauj proceeded towards India to liberate it from British rule. Enroute it lliberated Andeman and Nicobar Islands. The I.N.A. Head quarters was shifted to Rangoon in January 1944. Azad Hind Fauj crossed the Burma Border, and stood on Indian soil on March 18 ,1944.

However, defeat of Japan and Germany in the Second World War forced INA to retreat and it could not achieve its objective. Subhas Chandra Bose was reportedly killed in an air crash over Taipeh, Taiwan (Formosa) on August 18, 1945. Though it is widely believed that he was still alive after the air crash not much information could be found about him.

Friday, September 18, 2009


Mangal Pandey

Born - 19 July 1827

Died - 8 April 1857

Achievements - A sepoy working under the British East India Company

Mangal Pandey's name got etched into the pages of the Indian history after he attacked his senior British officers in an incident, which is today remembered as the Sepoy Mutiny of 1857 or the India's First War of Independence. The reason behind this was the rumor that the cartridges used by Indian sepoys were greased with the fat of cow and pig. Mangal Pandey, whose name is often preceded by Shaheed meaning a martyr in Hindi, was an Indian soldier during the pre-independence era. A member of the 34th Regiment of the Bengal native infantry of the East India Company, Mangal Pandey is counted among the most popular figures associated with India's freedom struggle in present times. He was born on 19 July 1827 in the Nagwa village in the Ballia district of the Uttar Pradesh state. There still exist families in this village who claim to the descendents of Mangal Pandey. However, some disputes exist over the exact place where Mangal Pandey was born. So read on to know more about the biography of Mangal Pandey, who joined the sepoy force of the British East India Company in the year 1849 at the age of 22. His name got etched into the pages of the Indian history after he attacked his senior British officers in an incident, which is today called the Sepoy Mutiny of 1857 or the India's First War of Independence. Due to this, he was later captured and hung till death on 8 April in 1857. Here's more about the life history of Mangal Pandey, who was a devout Hindu and practiced his religion strictly. It was rumored that the cartridge used in the Enfield P-53 rifle which was being used by the Indian sepoys was greased with the fat of pig and cow fat. These cartridges had to be bitten off in order to remove the cover prior use and this went against the religious beliefs of the Muslims and Hindus. The general opinion was that the Britishers had deliberately done this to hurt the sentiments of Indians. And this was the main reason behind the outburst of Pandey's anger.

Born: December 3, 1884

Died: February 28, 1963

Achievements: First President of independent India

President of the Constituent Assembly; President of Congress in 1943 and 1939.Dr. Rajendra Prasad was the first President of independent India. He was the President of the Constituent Assembly that drafted the Constitution. He had also served as a Cabinet Minister briefly in the first Government of independent India. Dr. Rajendra Prasad was one of the foremost disciples of Gandhiji and he played a crucial role in Indian freedom struggle.Dr. Rajendra Prasad was born on December 3, 1884 in Ziradei village in Siwan district of Bihar. His father's name was Mahadev Sahay and his mother's name was Kamleshwari Devi. Rajendra Prasad was youngest among his siblings. Mahadev Sahay was a Persian and Sanskrit language scholar. Dr. Rajendra Prasad was greatly attached to his mother and elder brother Mahendra.At the age of five Rajendra Prasad was, according to the practice in the community to which he belonged, put under a Maulavi who taught him Persian. Later, he was taught Hindi and arithmetic. At the age of 12, Rajendra Prasad was married to Rajvanshi Devi.Dr. Rajendra Prasad was a brilliant student. He stood first in the entrance examination to the University of Calcutta, and was awarded a monthly scholarship of Rs.30. He joined the famous Calcutta Presidency College in 1902. Here his teachers included the great scientist Jagdish Chandra Ray and the highly respected Prafulla Chandra Roy. Later on he switched from Science to Arts and completed his M.A. and Masters in Law. Meanwhile, in 1905, Doctor, Rajendra Prasad was initiated into the Swadeshi Movement by his elder brother Mahendra. He also joined the Dawn Society run by Satish Chandra Mukherjee, and Sister Nivedita.The arrival of Mahatma Gandhi on the Indian national scene greatly influenced Dr. Rajendra Prasad. While Gandhiji was on a fact-finding mission in Champaran district of Bihar, he called on Rajendra Prasad to come to Champaran with volunteers. Dr. Rajendra Prasad was greatly impressed by the dedication, conviction and courage that Gandhiji displayed. Gandhiji's influence greatly altered Dr. Rajendra Prasad's outlook. He sought ways to simplify his life and reduced the number of servants he had to one. He started doing his daily chores such as sweeping the floor, washing the utensils-the tasks he had all along assumed others would do for him.After coming into contact with Gandhiji, Dr. Rajendra Prasad, immersed himself fully into the freedom struggle. He played a active role during Non-Cooperation Movement. Dr. Rajendra Prasad was arrested in 1930 while participating in Salt Satyagraha. He was in jail when on 15 January 1934 a devastating earthquake struck Bihar. Rajendra Prasad was released from the jail two days later and he immediately set himself for the task of raising funds and organizing relief. The Viceroy also raised a fund for the purpose. However, while Rajendra Prasad's fund collected over Rs.3.8million, the Viceroy could only manage one-third of that amount. The way the relief was organized, it amply demonstrated the administrative acumen of Dr. Rajendra Prasad. Soon after this Dr Rajendra Prasad was elected as the President of the Bombay session of the Indian National Congress. He was elected as Congress President again in 1939 in the following the resignation of Netaji Subash Chandra Bose.In July 1946, when the Constituent Assembly was established to frame the Constitution of India, Dr. Rajendra Prasad was elected its President. Two and a half years after independence, on January 26, 1950, the Constitution of independent India was ratified and Dr. Rajendra Prasad was elected as India's first President. As a President, he used his moderating influence silently and unobtrusively and set a healthy precedent for others to follow. During his tenure as President he visited many countries on missions of goodwill and sought to establish and nourish new relationships.In 1962, after 12 years as President, Dr. Rajendra Prasad retired, and was subsequently awarded the Bharat Ratna, the nation's highest civilian award. He spent the last few months of his life in retirement at the Sadaqat Ashram in Patna. Dr. Rajendra Prasad died on February 28, 1963.

Lal Bahadur Sastri

Lal Bahadur Sastri
Born: October 2, 1904

Died: January 10, 1966

Achievements: Played a leading role in Indian freedom struggle

became Parliamentary Secretary of Pandit Govind Vallabh Pant, the then chief minister of Uttar Pradesh; became the Minister of Police and Transport in Pant's Cabinet; appointed as the Railways and Transport Minister in the Central Cabinet; also held the portfolios of Transport & Communications, Commerce and Industry, and Home Ministry in the Central cabinet; became Prime Minister of India in 1964; led India to victory over Pakistan in 1965 war.Lal Bahadur Shastri was the second Prime Minister of independent India. Though diminutive in physical stature he was a man of great courage and will. He successfully led country during the 1965 war with Pakistan. To mobilize the support of country during the war he coined the slogan of "Jai Jawan Jai Kisan". Lal Bahadur Sastri also played a key role in India's freedom struggle. He led his life with great simplicity and honesty and was a great source of inspiration for all the countrymen.Lal Bahadur Shastri was born on October 2, 1904 at Mughalsarai, Uttar Pradesh. His parents were Sharada Prasad and Ramdulari Devi. Lal Bahadur's surname was Srivastava but he dropped it as he did not want to indicate his caste. Lal Bahadur's father was a school teacher and later on he became a clerk in the Revenue Office at Allahabad. Though Sharada Prasad was poor, he lived a life of honesty and integrity. Lal Bahadur lost his father when he was only one. Ramdulari Devi raised Lal Bahadur and her two daughters at her father's house.There is a very famous incident regarding Lal Bahadur Shastri's childhood which took place when he was six years old. One day, while returning from school, Lal Bahadur and his friends went to an orchard that was on the way to home. Lal Bahadur Shastri was standing below while his friends climbed the trees to pluck mangoes. Meanwhile, the gardener came and caught hold of Lalbahadur Shastri. He scolded Lal Bahadur Shastri and started beating him. Lal Bahadur Shastri pleaded to gardener to leave him as he was orphan. Taking pity on Lal Bahadur, the gardener said, "Because you are an orphan, it is all the more important that you must learn better behavior." These words left a deep imprint on Lal Bahadur Shastri and he swore to behave better in the future.Lal Bahadur stayed at his grandfather's house till he was ten. By that time he had passed the sixth standard examination. He went to Varanasi for higher education. In 1921 when Mahatma Gandhi launched the non-cooperation movement against British Government, Lal Bahadur Shastri, was only seventeen years old. When Mahatma Gandhi gave a call to the youth to come out of Government schools and colleges, offices and courts and to sacrifice everything for the sake of freedom, Lal Bahadur came out of his school. Though his mother and relatives advised him not to do so, he was firm in his decision. Lal Bahadur was arrested during the Non-cooperation movement but as he was too young he was let off.After his release Lal Bahadur joined Kashi Vidya Peeth and for four years he studied philosophy. In 1926, Lal Bahadur earned the degree of "Shastri" After leaving Kashi Vidya Peeth, Lal Bahadur Shastri joined "The Servants of the People Society", which Lala Lajpat Rai had started in 1921. The aim of the Society was to train youths that were prepared to dedicate their lives in the service of the country. In 1927, Lal Bahadur Shastri married Lalitha Devi. The marriage ceremony was very simple and Shastriji took only a charkha (spinning wheel) and few yards of Khadi in dowry.In 1930, Gandhiji gave the call for Civil Disobedience Movement. Lal Bahadur Shastri joined the movement and encouraged people not to pay land revenue and taxes to the government. He was arrested and put in jail for two and a half years. In jail Shastriji became familiar with the works of western philosophers, revolutionaries and social reformers. Lal Bahadur Shastri had great self respect. Once when he was in prison, one of his daughters fell seriously ill. The officers agreed to release him out for a short time but on condition that he should agree in writing not to take part in the freedom 'movement during this period. Lal Bahadur did not wish to participate in the freedom movement during his temporary release from prison; but he said that he would not give it in writing. He thought that it was against his self-respect to give it in writing.After Second World War started in 1939, Congress launched "Individual Satyagraha" in 1940 to demand freedom. Lal Bahadur Shastri was arrested during Individual Satyagraha and released after one year. On August 8, 1942, Gandhiji gave the call for Quit India Movement. Lal Bahadur actively participated in the movement. He went underground but was later arrested. Lal Bahadur Shastri was released in 1945 along with other major leaders. He earned the praise of Pandit Govind Vallabh Pant by his hard work during the 1946 provincial elections. Lal Bahadur's administrative ability and organization skills came to the fore during this time. When Govind Vallabh Pant became the Chief Minister of Uttar Pradesh, he appointed Lal Bahadur Shastri as his Parliamentary Secretary. In 1947, Lal Bahadur Shastri became the Minister of Police and Transport in Pant's Cabinet.Lal Bahadur Sastri was the General Secretary of the Congress Party when the first general elections were held after India became Republic. Congress Party returned to power with a huge majority. In 1952, Jawahar Lal Nehru appointed Lal Bahadur Shastri as the Railways and Transport Minister in the Central Cabinet. Lal Bahadur Shastri's contribution in providing more facilities to travelers in third class compartments cannot be forgotten. He reduced the vast disparity between the first class and third class in the Railways. Lal Bahadur Shastri resigned from Railways in 1956, owning moral responsibility for a railway accident. Jawaharlal Nehru tried to persuade Shastriji but Lal Bahadur Shastri refused to budge from his stand. By his action Lal Bahadur Shastri set new standards of morality in public life.In the next general elections when Congress returned to power, Lal Bahadur Shastri became the Minister for Transport and Communications and later the Minister for Commerce and Industry. He became the Home Minister in 1961, after the death of Govind Vallabh Pant. In the 1962 India-China war Shastriji played a key role in maintaining internal security of the country. After the death of Jawaharlal Nehru in 1964, Lal Bahadur Shastri was unanimously elected as the Prime Minister of India. It was a difficult time and the country was facing huge challenges. There was food shortage in the country and on the security front Pakistan was creating problems. In 1965, Pakistan tried to take advantage of India's vulnerability and attacked India. Mild-mannered Lal Bahadur Shastri rose to the occasion and led the country ably. To enthuse soldiers and farmers he coined the slogan of "Jai Jawan, Jai Kisan". Pakistan lost the war and Shastriji's leadership was praised all over the world.In January 1966, to broker peace between India and Pakistan, Russia mediated a meeting between Lal Bahadur Shastri and Ayub Khan in Tashkent, Russia. India and Pakistan signed the joint declaration under Russian mediation. Under the treaty India agreed to return to Pakistan all the territories occupied by it during the war. The joint declaration was signed on January 10, 1966 and Lal Bahadur Shastri died of heart attack on the same night.

Chander Shekar Azad

Chander Shekar Azad
Born: July 23,1906

Died: February 27, 1931

Achievements: Involved in Kakori Train Robbery (1926)

The attempt to blow up the Viceroy's train (1926), and the shooting of Saunders at Lahore (1928) to avenge the killing of Lala Lajpatrai; formed Hindustan Socialist Republican Association with fellow compatriots Bhagat Singh, Sukhdev, and Rajguru.Chandrashekhar Azad was a great Indian freedom fighter. His fierce patriotism and courage inspired others of his generation to enter freedom struggle. Chandrasekhar Azad was the mentor Bhagat Singh, another great freedom fighter, and along with Bhagat Singh he is considered as one of the greatest revolutionaries that India has produced.Chandra Shekhar Azad was born on July 23,1906 in village Bhavra in Jhabua district of Madhya Pradesh. His parents were Pandit Sitaram Tiwari and Jagarani Devi. He received his early schooling in Bhavra. For higher studies he went to the Sanskrit Pathashala at Varanasi. He was an ardent follower of Hanuman and once disguised himself as a priest in a hanuman temple to escape the dragnet of British police.Chandrashekhar Azad was deeply troubled by the Jallianwala Bagh Massacre in Amritsar in 1919. In 1921, when Mahatma Gandhi launched Non-Cooperation movement, Chandrasekhar Azad actively participated in revolutionary activities. He received his first punishment at the age of fifteen. Chandra Shekhar was caught while indulging in revolutionary activities. When the magistrate asked him his name, he said "Azad" (meaning free). Chandrashekhar Azad was sentenced to fifteen lashes. With each stroke of the whip the young Chandrasekhar shouted "Bart Mata Kid Jai". From then on Chandrashekhar assumed the title of Azad and came to known as Chandrashekhar Azad. Chandrashekhar Azad vowed that he would never be arrested by the British police and would die as free man. After the suspension of non-cooperation movement Chandrashekhar Azad was attracted towards more aggressive and revolutionary ideals. He committed himself to complete independence by any means. Chandrashekhar Azad and his compatriots would target British officials known for their oppressive actions against ordinary people and freedom fighters. Chandrashekhar Azad was involved in Kakori Train Robbery (1926), the attempt to blow up the Viceroy's train (1926), and the shooting of Saunders at Lahore (1928) to avenge the killing of Lala Lajpatrai. Along with Bhagat Singh and other compatriots like Sukhdev and Rajguru, Chandrashekhar Azad formed the Hindustan Socialist Republican Association (HRSA). HRSA was committed to complete Indian independence and socialist principles for India's future progress. Chandrashekhar Azad was a terror for British police. He was on their hit list and the British police badly wanted to capture him dead or alive. On February 27, 1931 Chandrashekhar Azad met two of his comrades at the Alfred Park Allah bad. He was betrayed by an informer who had informed the British police. The police surrounded the park and ordered Chandrashekhar Azad to surrender. Chandrashekhar Azad fought alone valiantly and killed three policemen. But finding himself surrounded and seeing no route for escape, Chandrashekhar Azad shot himself. Thus he kept his pledge of not being caught alive.

Swami Vivekanand

Swami Vivekananda
In 1897 Swami Vivekanand arrived in America as an anonymous and penniless sannyasin (wandering monk). He had travelled to America as a representative of Hindusam and the ancient Indian tradition of Vedanta. Yet Vivekananda was not bound by any formal ties of religion. To the World Parliament of Religions he offered a message of a shared spirituality and the harmony of world religions. This universal message and his dynamic spiritual personality won the hearts and minds of many seekers; and his vision is still treasured today.
“Arise! Awake! And stop not till the goal is reached.”
- Vivekananda
Early Life of Vivekananda
Vivekananda was born to an orthodox Hindu family in Bengal 1863. From an early age he displayed signs of great compassion and also the qualities of a natural leader. Vivekananda had a sharp intellect and devoured literature from both East and West. This included Western philosophy and the great English poets. Vivekananda particularly liked the rational reasoning of the West and was easily dismayed by many of the religious superstitions and the cultural decline that Indian society found itself in. Thus Vivekananda was drawn to join the Brahmo Samaj. The Brahmo Samaj was a modern Hindu movement who sought to revitalise Indian life and spirituality through a rationalistic approach and abandonment of image worship.
However the rationality of the Brahmo Samaj could not satisfy the latent spiritual hunger of Vivekananda. From an early age he began to have spiritual experiences and at the age of 18 felt an overwhelming desire to “See God”. With a directness that was typical of Vivekananda he asked those around whether they had seen God. All affirmed in the negative. This included the great Devendranath Tagore (father of Rabindra Nath Tagore) However Devendranath told Vivekananda that he saw in him the eyes of a Yogi and surely he would Realise God in this lifetime. Although none could satisfy his question, he came to hear of the name Ramkrisna ParamHans who was reputed to be a great Spiritual Personality and had realised God.
Ramakrishna - Vivekananda
In many ways Ramkrishna was different to Vivekananda. Ramakrishna was an illiterate and simple villager who had taken a post at a local Kali temple. However his simple exterior hid a personality of extraordinary spirituality. For many years Ramakrishna had pursued the most intense spiritual practices burning with a longing for realisation of his beloved Mother Kali. But after attaining realisation, Ramakrishna not only practised Hindu rituals, but also pursued the spiritual paths of all the main religions. Sri Ramakrishna came to the conclusion that all religions lead to the same goal of union with the infinite. It was thus fitting that his closest disciple, Vivekananda would later eloquently spread this message, - the harmony of world religions. As Sir Aurbindo would later say:
" the Master (Sri Ramakrishna) marked out Vivekananda as the heroic soul destined to take the world between his two hands and change it."
Ramakrishna instantly recognised the spiritual potential of Vivekananda and lavished attention on Vivekananda, who at first did not always appreciate this. In the beginning the reasoning mind of Vivekananda was sceptical of this God intoxicated Saint and Vivekananda would frequently question and debate his teachings. However, slowly the spiritual magnetism of Sri Ramakrishna melted Vivekananda’s heart and he began to experience the real spirituality that Ramakrishna exuded. Thus Vivekananda mental opposition faded away to be replaced by an intense surrender to the Divine Mother and a burning longing for realisation.
For a short but intense period of about 5 years, Vivekananda learnt directly from his Master Sri Ramakrishna. Sri Ramakrishna was able to awaken the dormant spiritual consciousness in his beloved disciple and Vivekananda soon began to experience profound states of consciousness and samadhi. After the passing of Ramakrishna, the other disciples looked to Vivekananda for leadership and he helped form the first monastic order of Ramakrishna. Under his constant guidance he urged his fellow brother disciples to renounce the world and seek communion with God.
However for Vivekananda, personal liberation was not enough. His heart ached for the downtrodden masses of India who suffered poverty and many hardships. Vivekananda felt that the highest ideal was to serve God through serving humanity. Thus Vivekananda would later add social work as an important element of the Ramakrishna order. Thus after spending a few years in meditation Vivekananda became restless and began travelling throughout India, visiting many of the holy sites. After travelling through India and coming into contact with many influential figures, it was suggested that Vivekananda would make an ideal candidate to represent Hinduism at the World Parliament of Religions which was shortly to be held in Chicago, USA. Before leaving Vivekananda went to receive the blessings of Sarada devi, the wife of Sri Ramakrishna. After receiving her encouragement and blessings he made the momentous journey to America dressed in his ochre robe and maintaining the vows of a Sanyasin
Vivekananda – World Parliament of Religions.
Vivekananda at the Parliament of World Religions
At the opening ceremony Vivekananda was one of the last speakers to speak. The previous speakers had talked about the merits of their own religion but Vivekananda appealed to the whole audience with his vision of oneness and equality before God.
His opening words began with.
“Brother and Sisters of America.” … Spontaneously the audience rose to its feet to applaud, perhaps appreciating the visionary sentiments Vivekananda offered.
Swami Vivekananda was chosen to represent Hinduism. However Swami Vivekananda did not try in any way to prove the superiority of his religion. Instead Vivekananda spoke with great sincerity about the harmony of world religions and the common spirituality of humanity. It was this universal message of oneness which captivated the audience.
“As different streams, having their sources in different places, all mingle their water in the sea, so, O Lord, the different paths which men take through different tendencies, various though they appear, crooked or straight, all lead to Thee.”
Video of Swami Vivekananda's Speech to World Parliament of Religions 1893
Vivekananda proved to be an eloquent exponent of Vedanta and the ideals of all religions. In addition people felt in this handsome and striking Monk a calm detachment, a luminous personality and radiant spirituality. Unexpectedly Vivekananda proved to be the star of the World Parliament of Religions
The New York Herald said of Vivekananda.
“He is undoubtedly the greatest figure in the Parliament of Religions. After hearing him we feel how foolish it is to send missionaries to this learned nation.”
The Boston Evening Post said.
“If he (Vivekananda) merely crosses the platform he is applauded; and this marked approval of thousands he accepts in a childlike spirit of gratification without a trace of conceit…”
Throughout the conference Vivekananda was undoubtedly the star, the organisers would save Vivekananda to the end to make sure the audience would stay to listen.
The conference propelled Vivekananda into the public eye and for many months he travelled across America giving talks on the ancient tradition of Vedanta and his hope of fusing the spirituality of the East with the materialism of the West.
In America Vivekananda also began training some close students so they could propagate the teachings of Vedanta. He was able to start small centres in both the US and Great Britain. Vivekananda admitted he entered Britain with deep misgivings since his heart rebelled at the effects of the British Empire on his beloved motherland. However he was delighted to find some individuals who were sincerely attracted to the teachings of Vedanta. One notable example was Miss Margaret Noble (later named Nivedita), originally from Ireland, Nivedita was to became a devoted disciple who would dedicate her life to the Indian people)
After several years in the West, Vivekananda returned to India where he was met with a rapturous reception. In particular, his brother monks who were full of pride with Vivekananda who had returned with glowing praise. Despite falling health Vivekananda threw himself into a whirlpool of activity reorganising the monasteries and exhorting his fellow Indians to return to the truth of the Vedantic principles. But also Vivekananda sought to imbibe in the Indian consciousness a renewed dynamism to improve their material life. As Vivekananda often said, it was no use teaching religion to those with empty stomachs.
Vivekananda passed away at the young age of 39 but he achieved a remarkable amount in this short time on earth. He combined the ancient spiritual traditions of India with the dynamism of the West. Many Indian politicians would later offer their gratitude to the impact and ideals of Vivekananda. To many Vivekananda is regarded as the patron saint of modern India.
Swami Vivekananda's temple at Belur Math where he was cremated.

Owh My..What A Sight!!


Today wasn’t my day. It really wasn’t at all..not even a little. Gosh! How could I possibly bump into him ever again, more over in my own country. How can I ever forget this terrible terrible day. I mean, the advanced assessment was bad enough although it was a little easier than the one we did previously but still,it’s not that easy to get by as well. I thought that I could catch some fresh air or some cool breeze right after the assessment, by my God, did I pick the wrong venue to hang out today. Well, here’s a little of what happened today at 5.30pm.

After I left PV, I headed to KLCC with a movie in mind, final destination 4-3d version. Yeah...I couldnt wait till Cathay’s 10.05pm show and I didnt want to drive all the way to Sunway, although they had a 5.10pm show...sometimes when I look back, I think I deserve it as well. Hahaha.. But anyway, I headed towards KLCC, surprisingly no jam at all and it was a smooth drive all the way. Yeah, coz most people would probably be at their hometowns by now. So, by the time I reached KLCC, it was slightly after 5pm. Parked my car in the parking bay, usually near the Isetan lift entrance coz I’m just too lazy to walk. Too the elevator up to Isetan and was on my way to the ladies when I heard my name. Or at least, I thought I heard my name. But I didnt look back as I thought it was just another person with the same name. You know..Lynn is a common name after all. It could be Lin, Lyn,Lynn or even Leen. Went to the ladies and did my business, applied some make up, didnt even know what prompted me to do that, comb my hair and got out like 10 minutes later. Walk towards the Total Women area, pluz size clothes for big women, like me and started going through some skirts. Felt someone calling me from behind. Turned and almost FAINTED!! Oh my GOD!! Jesus Christ!!

It was my ex, Ajantha!! It’s been 5 years since we last saw one another, spoke on the phone or even e-mailed. I must say I lost contact with him after the painful break up. But he looked, owh my, still the same old guy, ever so young, ever so gentleman. Geez...I was at total lost. How could a guy that I’ve loved so dearly show up in front of me after 5 years, still looking the same as before when I myself have changed? So, the first question that came through my mind was, “Are you alone?” and he said “Yes”. That drove me crazy...seriously, my mind was a total blank, I was speechless and I couldnt move. I wanted to run. Run as far as I could from him. I didnt want to live through this pain anymore. But one thought gave me shivers. Is this what we call Fate? Were we both fated for one another and were destined to be together like star-crossed lovers? How could this be? How could he re-appear after 5 years, right exactly after separating from Brian. But this can’t be it. I am still engaged to Brian, I do still love Brian and perhaps one day or maybe soon, I could be back with him. I would marry Brian and I know that he still loves me very much. But lets say, we both are just going through a cooling off period for one another. It may work out, it may not. That depends on how we both feel after 1 year. Yeah, the cooling period is 1 year.

Okay, enough of Brian. Let me get back to my ex. A brief history on how we met, fell in love and broke up...

I was 19 when I met Aja over the internet. At that time, I was just a first year law student and alone in KL and being a student, its obvious that I surf the net. But as I can recall, I didnt have any laptop or computers at that time. Probably it was during one of my few trips back to Penang that I was chatting online and met him. He was attached to Emirates Airlines in Dubai at that time as a Briefing Officer. He would brief the flight crew an hour before departure just to make sure everything was fine. Owh..did I mention that he was Sri Lankan? And that he was married at that time, to a flight attendant from Sri Lankan Airways but was in the midst of a divorce? But at that time, being a student, I didnt care much. I thought he was great and he meant the world to me. Day & night, he would call me from Dubai, just to say hello or good night or just a kiss good night. He cared for me all the way and I felt his presence with me all the time, to keep me safe and warm. I still remembered that once, he had to pay 40,000 dirhams for calls made to me. Pitiful huh? And how he would usually order his dinner from the restaurant below his apartment. It would always be roti and dhaal. Simple dinner but satisfying... Anyway, after 4 months of calling, sms-ing, webcam, e-mailing and stuff, he told me that he would come to KL for 1 week for his holidays. I was really excited. Finally, I get to meet a man that I’ve spoken to for the past 4 months and who seemed to be pleasant and nice. But in my mind, million of questions were popping out. What if he didn’t like me? What if I’m too fat for him? Bla.. Bla..Bla..So the moment arrived when I finally met him in KL Sentral. With his baseball cap and a white tee with jeans and a big briefcase, he walked towards me and asked, “Are you Lynn?”. I looked up, all shy, smiled and before I knew it, he gave me a warm hug. That was it!! That really woke me up. So, in the cab and back to the hotel. At that time I was having my college exams but it didn’t mattered. He was everything above those exams. So we checked in and spent the next 5 days having fun. Or at least, I had fun spending his money. Hahahaha....kekeke...Went shopping in Bkt Bintang, Midvalley, KLCC, bought so many things till I couldnt carry. We even had our breakfast, lunch and dinner in the hotel. My oh my..for once, I felt like a pampered princess. So, it was the final day of my dumb exams and I was heading back to Penang for holidays. I brought him along, he bought the tickets and even booked Rasa Sayang Hotel, which cost around 400 a night for the next 3 nights. And day in and out, people call me as Mrs Ajantha. Even the hotel registration card says Mr & Mrs PLA Ajantha. It was the stupidest joke my cousin had ever played on me. I found out that she booked me a Honeymoon Suite. No wonder there is a bottle of champagne, a bouquest of roses, chocolates with strawberries and flowers all over the bed. Geez...I think I forgot to mention that we went to Genting casino, and he won like 5k and bought me a diamond ring, but eventually I sold it after we broke up, just to get over him coz at that time, I really didnt want to speak of him no more. So,the day finally came for him to leave for Dubai. I couldnt accompany him to KL, so we like had the final kiss in the bus terminal in Penang. Really cried my heart out for the next 48 hours until I finally saw him online on msn. The gifts that he gave me..mmm..I starred at them day and night, night and day. A beautiful Estee Lauder travel kit which cost like rm200, 3 bottles of perfume, dkny, ghost and tommy girl. Countless tees, skirts and dresses, not forgetting shoes and bags and of course, the diamond ring!! Well, this went on for a year or so, he did come down a few times after the last visit, finalized his divorce with the wife. So, he was a new man!! A man with the passion to start all over again. But then, there were objections from his family. Well, his family didnt like the idea of him marrying me, some stranger from Malaysia. Though we tried to sort things out, it didnt turn up well. The days I spent in Dubai were terrible. I had threats, vulgarity thrown at me by his family day and night. But our love was still going strong beneath all the fights and objections. We still loved one another. We wanted to be together. At that time, I was willing to leave everything behind and move to Dubai to start a new life with him. But that never came through. After I left Dubai, I lost contact with the one I loved so dearly. I tried to e-mail him but it bounced back. I called him but was unreachable. I wrote to him, to his company but it was returned to me. I called his friend,Priya and she told me that he has left the airlines. And he wasn’t on msn anymore. What had happened? I really wanted to know. Where is he? Where can I find him? Is he alright? I was like insane and couldnt get my head straight for the next few months. I couldnt concentrate on my studies, work and even my parents. I was at a total lost. But as the saying goes, time will heal the broken hearted. Well, guess, its true. It healed my broken heart. It takes time,yes that’s true. It took me almost a year to forget him. Sold his diamond ring for 4k just to forget him, threw all his gifts just to forget him. I totally erased him from my heart and my mind...

That was the past...

And so today, standing in front of me, was Ajantha! After 5 whole years of trying to forget him, here he is today right in front of me, for real. So, I kinda like had dinner with him at California Pizza Kitchen though I really didn’t feel like eating at all. Actually, I was not in the mood for anything. All I wanted to do was to run home and forget that this had really happened. Why did I have to choose KLCC today? Why couldnt I just catch a movie in 1 Utama? Or just wait for Cathay’s 10pm show? Why? Why? Why? Perhaps, the almighty above has arranged this meeting. Perhaps... And the thought of watching a movie just subsided. I just couldnt think at that time. He really caught me by surprise. Had a great chat with him, yeah, catching up 5 years in a day...he explained that after I left, his family brought him back to Sri Lanka and he worked for his father. He tried to contact me but he couldnt reach me. He said that his dad passed away in 2004 and ever since, his mother has changed. He still worked for his late-father’s company, which is like his now, and over the past years, he had returned to KL, hoping to see me. What can I say? I was dumbfounded. Total lost. Total memory lost. Why did he say this? Why? After 5 years, did he expect me to still wait for him? But I do admit, I still love him. I’ve loved him every moment for the past 5 years though I didn’t want to admit it or express it openly. I really do love him. But looking back, this would be unfair to Brian. I love Brian as well. Both men have different ways, different plus points. But if I were to run with Ajantha today, would it be fair to Brian? But if I chose to stay, would it be fair to myself? I really can’t decide. One part says Brian, one part says Ajantha. I mean, the cooling period is 1 year. Would it be fair to Brian if I were to end it now? I dont think so at all...but if I decided to call it quits after 1 year, will Ajantha still be here for me? Will he? But if he really loved me, and have waited for 5 years, can’t he just wait another year? Or what if I decided to marry Brian after a year, would it be fair to Ajantha?

Or maybe, I should just let both men go....

In the end, at 10pm today at California Pizza Kitchen,KLCC, I told him “I’m sorry.”

Will I ever regret my decision?...